worried for nothing*
phew! i finally got passed today. i am happy i went for dance today it was so fun! it learnt knew steps! quite fun! however also very dangerous or maybe its just me. hahaha. school was alright today but because of the nice cool weather made me feel very sleepy. so i almost fell alseep during social studies class. all the way to dance class in the bus, my dear friend said something really weird. i dont know whether to take it as an insult or compliment, here it goes "not like rachel, so skinny and disgusting" and i looked and her with the i am not deaf look but smiled later coz i knew she didnt mean it that way. hahaha...it was rather funny. overall i had a great day today! thank you Lord for answering my prayer!:)

mg's exceeding joy*
to see hundreds of mg gals worshipping God, past and present just filled my heart with so much joy. everyone was jumping and singing their hearts out. if only mg chapel was like that too. we have this event once a year, i have been serving in the love mg ministry since it began which was five years ago. and i think yesterday was a breaking record of the number people who came. the testimony was so real and i am sure it touched many lives and i was one of them. sadly i missed the last part of the sermon coz i was looking after my vice-principle's daughter, and she was very attached to me and i couldnt bring her inside the audi if not she will scream. so i entertained her for a while and went back in during alter call coz i have to help to pray for people. after that it was back to solid worship, since there were quite a number of my class people, i gathered all of them and dragged them down right in front of stage and sing and dance for God. it was awsome to see God's presence in mg and everyone jumping and hands lifted high for to worship the Almighty. time passed real fast and i cant wait for the next years. maybee we should do this more than once a year. something to suggest to the committee. hehee...

happy day*
it's a happy day
i thank God for the weather
it's a happy day
i'm living for my Lord
it's a happy day
and things are gonna get better
living each day
by the promise of God's word
everytime when i am sad or discourage i sing this song. although i dont remember where i learnt it from. it just came to my mind during my chinese test coz i was so upset that i couldnt do my paper. oh wells but its over. i like this song! hehehe...dance was not as bad i thought. my knee does hurt a little but i just i had much fun in return. so i guess it was worth it. somehow i wish for a little rest. this week has been really busy having late nights and all. pufft!

a big big listening ear*
treasure your friends
dont let them pass by
or else we might regret
a friend who has showed so much care and concern and i cant even repay the person's kindness. i wish i could do something to make the person not live in so much sadness coz it hurts me to see you like that too. rachel rachel rachel sometimes you are so useless:( sighh i have decided to start a come to rachel if you are sad business:) well coz that is one of the rare talents rachel has. a big listening ear:)

Love like no other*
Who would've known
This heart would stumble on someone
As great as you
Out of the blue
Who would've guessed
That I would fall so deep
In a hope as true
As the one I found in You
Heaven's hands
Lead me to faith's open door
I'm surrounded by a grace
This soul just can't ignore

Lord, I'm Living in a love like not other
Lost in mercy like I've never known
Lord, I'm trusting in a love like no other
To lead me on

Who would've cared
Enough to reach beyond my thin disguise
To heal my life
Who would've dared
To wear the shame I carried deep inside
To be my sacrifice
Saving me
From myself in the nick of time
Forgiveness found
It's way into this heart of mine

Unconditionally
You embrace all that I am
It's beyond all reason
It's a love I'll never understand

a good exercise*
i woke up late for flag day due to a miscommnunication with my mum. she thought i had to be in school by 745 but actually i had to be at weelock by 745. oh wells so i rushed down in a cab and was on time. it was super tiring one experince is good enough for me. some people were friendly others were scary. overall i had fun but my legs are tired. despite my legs aching sarah and i had to head to school for chemistry tuition with my teacher who so kindly took time to teach us. i really admire her for her patience:) forgetting that our books were in class, we dragged ourselves 81 stairs up our classroom and came down again to meet our teacher. not forgetting our school is on top of a hill. later on we had to walk home. sarah and i chatted. after she left i decided to exercise more regardless how tired i was. so i went down to my pool and gave a full force. came back took a nice long shower and ate a lot for dinner:) hehehe..real good exercise today. i am NOT trying to lose weight! just a note for people who think i am trying to be thinner:D

useless*
for some reason you seem to dislike me a lot. sorry for being useless. i wish you knew the real reason. oh wells...forget it rachel!
okayy now. we had our sec 4 dance farewell today:( sad. i will miss them. i think they are a great bunch! so friendly and always willing to help us! i wish i could be this nice to my juniors. overall i wouldnt really rate today as a good day. in fact i didnt really like it! Keep reminding myself that i am living for God and nothing else on this earth is better!

the end*
i wish i could end it now.
leaving the past behind.
and start anew.
i admit i was in the wrong.
likewise i cannot be perfect friend.
but i do my best to earn our friendship back.
i am willing to try.
will you give me a chance?
living in this guilt brings me no where.
your words hurt me.
but i guess you are right and i deserve those harsh words.
i hope u will forgive me for being a hypocrite.
it wasnt intentional:(

national day*
doesnt seem anything special this year! i woke up thinking its a normal day except that there is no school. yesterday was pretty fun. watching mean girls for the fouth time was rather amusing. eating to our hearts content. and watching football but most of the time watching out for cute guys only:) hahaha. i am grateful for another day of holiday and a rather relaxing week. while my other friends are having CA test:P feels good! oh and update on a makeover in my room?! now i have a room that is twice my old room. with a big queen size bed and a toilet! i love it! a thought on what happen on saturday. i went with evelyn to clementi to print photos, when we went to get a drink, i was called aunty. man i was like WHAT? oh wells it was rather contradicting when i wanted to buy exam papers for practice. the lady asked me which primany level i wanted to buy. then i looked at myself and thought, did i dress that young today? as another incident happened that very day. but i was in fbts and tshirt. oh whatever. hahaha...overall i enjoyed this weekend! happy 39 birthday singapore!

here i am*
firstly, auditions were quite a disaster. but i am just glad it was over. i had 3 ballet instructors watching and ballet isnt my best dance type therefore i was practically making a fool out of myself. not only that, i havent dance for 3 months we made me really inflexible.
secondly, social studies test was a killer. source base isnt my thing and it was not from the textbook which made my memorising all a waste. with slow understanding that i have, it slows me down in my essay. i can predict a failing mark, thank God my history paper was fine.
this week has been a confusion of feelings, i can way up high and really low too. i really hope my weekend will brighten up, i dont want to carry on with this feeling, it sucks. i will be embarrassing myself on stage again:( i pray i will have the strenght to carry on, this battle has been a really long one, how i wish this ends nows...

thank you*
Ive known u all my life
But now youre moving on with life
Thinking back at the times when we used to fight
Seems like yesterday
I will miss the days,
The fun we use to have.
I will miss the days
The tears that we both shed
I will miss the nights
When we will talk and share our lives
You know there is one thing
That Ive always meant to say
So here it goes, and I do hope u feel the same.
Your life is one that changed my cause
Your life is one that thought me
What it meant by living for the cross
All I want to say
Is thank you for the ways
That youve loved me
The way youve cared for me
No words enough to
Express the way I feel
Just wanna say
That I love you anyway.
And I say Thank you,
And I say Thank you once again
But youre moving on with life
Tie the knot with this great guy
I see God hands in this all the time

this is a song composed by my older brother for my sis! he sang it during the wedding! so sweet! hehehe...i wish i was equally talented in music. oh wells. i guess today wasnt that bad cept that the next three days will probably be a horror!

pissed*
oh man! just when everything was going well for me today, you just have to come in and distroy it! would you just leave me alone! arggh.