Portrait of an Apology
Look what I've done
This picture I've painted
It looks like my heart
Or what still remains

Convinced of the weight
Your interpretations
Are not what I see
I wish they could be

I remember it much redder
I remember it much brighter

Can you stay for a while
Try to imagine this
Could you be for a while
I can't remember it
Could you fall for a while
I can't escape from this

I'll try to explain
The way that the frame
Doesn't quite fit the image
Or surround the edge

It stands on display
What do you see?
Behold all the new grey
What's become of the old me

Calling, crying, ashamed of what I am not
Really failing, falling into this cage and I can't escape
I can't escape
I can't escape, I can't escape, I can't escape

divide dance...

if the world is my stage, who am i performing for?
i stand alone on the stage
so many people to please
How can i get their attention?
Now more than ever, i feel the pressure of the world weighing on my shoulders. overwhelmed by my own insecurities, demands on my time and the never ending expectations of others. i often forget that my creator designed me to dance for HIM alone and no one else. i pray i will dance the dance that God intended for me...

unfabulous
Day after day is unfabulous
and everyone around me is unbearable
im gonna be the one unflappable
it's better unfabulous
it's better unfabulous
i'm gonna be the one unstoppable
it's better unfabulous
i'm gonna be the one unforgetable
it's better unfabulous (OH YEAH)
it's better unfabulous (OH YEAH)
it's better un-fab-u-lous!

Happy Valentine's Day=)

hehe...i took a picture of all my valentine's day present! thankyou to everyone! its quite sad that its a monday, but we will make the best of it! well valentine's day is not only for couples, but also really close friends. it was pretty fun in school today! happy valentine's day to all my friends!
aside from the happy things that happened today, i failed both my geog tests. now i am really sad, and i wanna drop but my mom doesnt allow me!=( its really stressing me out! and i think that geog is one of the more taxing subjects! oh wells...at least there are still birghter things to look forward to today! its just filled with love in the air! heee...

this is terrible

i was supposed to finish my school and tuition homework plus revision for my add math test. ohh goodness, i was been total lazy today. well at least i finished my add math homework! i have loads of tuition homework which i have no idea how to do it, got a test coming which i am totally not prepared for...coz it has differentiation in it! AHHH! oh wells...i hope to get by this fast!

Chinese New Year

yupp my little niece, super duber hyper and jumpy and loves the attention! a huge obsession of bananas in pyjamas and she keeps singing it over and over again. but nevertheless i love her! she keeps giving aunty rachel her half eaten food. she is really amsusing. oh wells, this year, my family kinda lost a little of the chinese new year spirit, due to the decrease in family size. my sister has married out, three of my other cousins are away. leaving only 5 cousins left this chinese new year! this is saddening. we didnt play any games this year due the limited number of people so we watched a movie instead, but its still enjoyable. i cant believe we are given homework during this holiday, thus i am not really planning to do any...its CHINESE NEW YEAR!

lack of creativity

delicious chicken rice- yummy!
the shots i took today were not really up to my expectations. i dont find it that nice...its too normal. oh wells, its finally chinese new year eve! yay! good food tonight and a whole long visiting tml...at least there is a nice short break from school and work. a little more time to relax before going back to a busy weeks with loads of tests again=( look on the bright side, 10 months of horror left...

Turn back time
i am at a point in life where i regreted certain things. wishing i could turn back time and relive history, i guess its a little too late. well...time to move on, i cant be stuck here for the rest of my life, i pray for a miricle to happen. if only there was a chance given...

a pleasant trip

had a field trip to koon seng road yesterday to have a brief understanding of the peranakan culture. pretty interesting, but it seems a rather strict sexist culture where girls cannot go out! how terrible is that? oh wells...but i do have a little peranakan blood in me, i love their food and costume though! katong laksa...yummy! anyway...it has been a fun day.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAC & SK=)