I'm going up and down and up!

Cluster retreat was an awesome experience for me, especially after 6 months of struggle with God, running on my own strength and depending on human love and comfort. I still had a hard fall in the end, during the retreat was a time of awakening for me, a time of refreshing, a time of renewal with my relationship with God. It was great to see his presence flowing among his children, a young generation that he is preparing to serve him. Games were solid but I had little energy, I am so lack of exercise. Enjoyed every bit of the camp, I managed to catch up with some people whom I have not spoken to for a while. But my most favourite part was, when we could worship God through different types of art work, painting, poems, and sculptures. Basically, I enjoyed the retreat, it was also a time of rest for me too, thank God for it!

Everyone left on Wednesday, but cellkids stayed on one more day. As you can see the picture, my attempt to help out in the kitchen. The girls were preparing lunch, while the guys were out grocery shopping, we sound like a happy family, and indeed we are! As had amusing conversations with one and another, really funny ones! Laughter just filled the whole place. Then it was endless fun of bridge till 6 in the morning, a great time of catching up too! I love cellkids=)

Today, we had breathtaking worship during chapel and the Lord spoke again, it was so comforting to hear his voice. Especially, when I was so nervous for my practice papers, God was with me throughout the papers, cause I felt a sense of calmness even though I could not write much for geog, but math was alright, hoping to pass both papers through His grace. My teacher made an interesting point today, from young, I was brought up thinking that, we must help ourselves before God can help us. However, she shared with us that the statement is not stated in the bible, and if we can help ourselves why do we even need God in the first place right? But I am sure she meant that we have to put in effort to study also, and with His guiding hand, he will carry us through, he will never abandon us no matter what!

Once upon a time...
There once lived a teenage girl who dreams of love as the most magical experience she could ever have, nothing else was more important to her but love. However, she never really understood what love actually meant. Most movies would display love as a fantasy that between a guy and a girl. Envious at her friends for having relationship, she still did not want to rush into one. She wishes for chemistry to happen naturally between her and her future stead. Not one that was forced pressured by friends, instead a relationship that is more real, fated and fairy-tale. For now, she is happy with love from family, friends and most importantly God.
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 2 Cor 4:18
Have been thinking about this verse for quite sometime, the first thing that comes to my mind is LOVE=)
(going away for cluster retreat which is about love, share more when i am back)

back in action=D
back from my stay over at my sis's house! it was great! i learn to be more independent and responsible! i always complain that i have no time, which is such a lie actually. without the television and the computer, i have plenty of time, more than i imagine, really! hahaha...i help to wash dishes too! it was fun=) now i am back in my messy home, but it is great to be back, i think my parents miss my whining in the house! this pass week has been pretty much fulfil to me. loved it so much! well, i guess thats enough of fun, time to get down to some serious work already.
OH! i seriously have to STOP watching silly teenage romantic movies man! its bad for my mind, it keeps making me wonder whether this things would actually come true. but i know in reality, it doesnt happen. there will never be a prince charming, there will never be a perfect relationship and other fantasy i dream off. *slaps myself* wake up! this is reality! hahahaha...how i wish...

feels great=)
now that the history paper is over, a load if off my shoulders and i can breathe a lot better. but there are still lotsa exam papers to be done and i miscounted, instead of 14 there is 18 now! oh dears! :S i took the day off to relaxed today, had a rather nice break and did a up a new site for some of my favourite pictures. feel free to take and look and leave some comments=) heehee.. anyways, i will be going over to my sister's house to stay from tomorrow onwards, cool rite! but i will kinda of wonder how will i survive without the television. haha, i will let you know when i am back. hopefully i can bring my laptop with me over to my sis's house! that will be great! and bring loads and dvd to watch to make up for the not having the tv. hehee...or maybe just be a good girl and catch up on some work! i will update more soon! tired tired=S thats all for now, nites!

WHAT A NIGHTMARE!
This long awaited holiday of rest is turning out to be a total nightmare for me. I have so many assignments due, 14 sets of prelim papers expected to be done before school reopens, mock exams waiting for me, and the list just never seem to end! What a nightmare! Tomorrow is chemistry practical, not really confident because I am not really good in practical. Today biology paper was fairly manageable except for a few tough questions, well, I really hope to pass! Asides that, I am squeezing 10 chapters of history in just 3 days, am I crazy or what? But there is just no time! I am extremely freaked out by Monday history paper! Once Monday is over, I have to rush my revisions and complete endless papers! Oh boy! This holiday was supposed to be a break, or at least I expected it to be one! I really do not want to waste this precious time away, hope I can do something about it and stop being a lazy ass. Now that I have let out of my frustration and worries, I can go back to being the normal me! PHEW! *breathe in, breathe out* This song really speaks, there must be more than grades. but yet again, its an imperfect world...

Consuming fire=)
There must be more than this
O breath of God come breathe within
There must be more than this
Spirit of God we wait for You
Fill us anew we pray, Fill us anew we pray

Consuming fire fan into flame
A passion for Your name
Spirit of God fall in this place
Lord have Your way, Lord have Your way with us

Come like a rushing wind
Clothe us with power from on high
Now set the captives free
Leave us abandoned to Your praise
Lord let Your glory fall, Lord let Your glory fall