Got up on the wrong side of the bed

It has been two weeks since i blogged. Been really busy! Especially the past week, with founders day, sk's concert, worship prac and sonic festival. Sadly, none of it has to do with studying. Prelims are in a week and a half, please continue to keep me in prayer. I have to admit it was total fun for me this week, a rather tough one though, yet enjoyable!

Was really moody for the pass few nights, probably its because of not enough sleep due to the guilt for not studying. Guess i got a problem with time management. Anyway, i wanna apologise to those i have been really rude to the past 2 days, really sorry, i didnt mean to shout, just wasnt feeling good. okay, i think thats all i wanna say, photos will be up when my com is repaired. I'm just using my dad's laptop now.

Somehow it all ends here
I just had to delete the previous post, it was just too depressing. And it's giving people the wrong idea. Practice papers are kinda over, just left one more math paper one. Out of all my papers, i think i will only pass math. At least i hope to, but by God's grace, i may pass my other papers. Sometimes, i stop and think why i actually study. Here is my list...
1) To prove to others i am not dumb
2) I dont want to lose out to others
3) Just to fulfil a simple dream of a perfect future
Well, all this reasons are just basically competitive reasons i suppose. This aint really a good enough reason. All day long, i worry what others think about me. Why am i so self-conscious? I dont really have an answer to that, that's just my character i suppose. With those reasons, i came to a conclusion that i am actually studying aimlessly. I kind of have an idea what i wanna do in the future, but i am afraid to share my dreams with others because they may just think differently of me. Well just dont wanna end up studying all my life and not knowing where i am actually heading. Everyone i know who is working keeps telling me to treasure my school life, but its hard to see it know with the education becoming more pressurising, i guess i will only understand when i reach that stage.

If you guys where wondering why i even wrote this post, i am just figuring out what i wanna do with my life. Poly? JC? i guess i am not that sure afterall...somehow it all ends here.

Little Saints in action
So what do u get when u put little innocent kids with three whacky cell leaders?

It starts with the three funky angels...

When we first met...all is peaceful...

overtime...we all become whacky and crazy!

We don't care what people will say
We're running after You
We won't turn back and go their way
Coz We're running after You
Don't matter what may come our way
We're running after you
It's You We're following today
We're running after You

Now...how can i not love my cell?

My little girl is growing up
Chloe dearest, I known you for 10 over years but only got to know you personally since you were in heartbeat. This past three years was a roller coaster ride, a rather interesting one I must say. You are a person who is really brave, I always remember every time if I get bullied in school you would always want to stand up for me! I really admired you for that, especially when I am supposed to be the one protecting you. Thank you so much for being such a dear, I really love you! Mummy's little girl is growing up, turning 15 soon, with a blink of an eye she is going to get married! Okay, I was kidding, but it has been great knowing you, memories will always remain.

As you can probably guess, we had a surprise party for my daughter who happens to be only one year younger than me. (haha) We had a fantastic time! We arranged for her friend to bring her out and we went to her house to prepare a little and wait for the birthday girl to arrive. Once she did, she was sure surprised, there are picture to prove it! We are had sumptuous meal prepared by auntie Gina and uncle Thomas. And we ended the night with different groups of card games and chatting. Thank you Zac and Chloe for opening your house, had a really great time!

By the way, I got my founders' day dress. Hehe..

Dance into a fantasy of my own
Dance threw off a great start for this terms workshop. We are learning Broadway jazz, which is really cool. Those who have watched chorus line will understand what I mean. In fact, we are learning steps to the song. Though, warm ups are a killer, but hey, we got a hot cute instructor! Besides, our steps are really cool and funky. Aside from dance, school was pretty much normal, no excitement.

However, for some reason, I was pretty much in a daze the whole afternoon. Just a short walk from KAP home already caused me two close encounters with accidents. I was just looking towards the ground, deep in thought, a motorcycle was coming towards me and I did not realize and he just stopped just in time right in front of me and I got a shock. He stared at me furiously but I made a quick apology and run off. The second time was when I was walking up a gentle hill near my house, I was staring at this guy who was walking in the MIDDLE of the road. I had no idea what he was trying to do, but he literally walking in the centre of a two way road. With so much thought in my head, I crossed the road and almost got knocked down by a car. By the time I got home, I was glad to be home in a piece. Guess, I got to be more careful.

Lord, please release all the thoughts that are not of you.