Free
-Corrinne May

I see the morning glory
It winds upon the tree
It tells the untold story of how things were meant to be
You saw the universe
Caught up in desperate dreams
You came and changed the ending
Changed it to save my fate
You led the revolution
You left your legacy
Embraced the struggle
in the face of mortality
I know I'm not alone in this
Help me believe

I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains

It's still the same old story
This great divide
Between the want and waste
And all the hunger inside
I heard the news today
Now I'm trying to find my place
I'm just a single voice
What can I do to erase

All this misunderstanding
All this anarchy
Six degrees of separation
Sometimes it's so hard to see
That we are not alone in this
I need to believe

This is an amazing song! It ties in with the purpose driven life book, life is just an temporary assignment, break these chains that the world has on us, so that I can be free from this world...free from temptations, free from entangaling thoughts, I am tired, I really am. Lord give me the strength to fight this emotional battle.

Growing up in a christian family has its CONS!

Since I attended everyday evangelism class, and we were asked to write a testimony of how we came to know Christ, I stared at my paper blankly and didnt know what to write. Basiscally because I was born into a christian family, my parents read to me bible stories, I went to sunday school and all. I was even water sprinkled (baptised) at 4 months old. So I asked my shepherd, how am I going to share to non-believers my testimony when I dont even have one! And she told me to share a specific time when God had changed my life, I gave that some thought I decided to share about the youth camp in 2003 and went on with my life as usual for about 2 months.

Then today it kinda hit me again, my brother was teaching follow-up class, and he shared about how after awhile, going to church was basically a routine, its something we knew we had to do. Then I was just sharing with another friend who also grew up in a christian family and she said she struggles with the same problem. I always thought that if I was a non-believer and became a christian, I would get to experience the difference, and really have a life turning point and thus be more convicted to grow. Some people says that pastor's kids backslide because of this, but its not true for all cases, it's just a saying. I have seen pastors who raised up such Godly children!

Another con about growing up in a Christian family is that sometimes we take for granted of what we know of the bible. Ever since I came to hope brisbane, I realised that my knowledge of basic christian doctrines is so little. And even as I prepare lessons in the 18 lessons, I will actually have "oh is it?" feeling when it comes to certain points. By the way, 18 lessons are for new-believers, hahaha...I am suppose to have these knowledge at the tips of my fingers since I have been a christian all my life which is currently 17 years. See what I mean...

Despite all these, there are definitely pros of being born into a christian family, the values that my parents have imparted in me have been so meaningful. The love and care is also a lot more! In addition, they are more willing to allow their children to go into full-time ministry, HEEE! Like my parents, and I am very grateful for that! I wonder this is true for my other friends who grew up with me in church...or is it just me?

Stay on the Road

Lately, I have been facing several distractions, losing my direction and focus. Suddenly I feel that everything around is pouring on me, my responsiblilities have increased. I guess it's good because it helps me to grow as well to, it teaches me so many things along the way. I see the joy in helping people, to see their happy faces after you talk to them, makes my heart leap for joy. I may not be the most capable person in fellow-up but I will try my best, thank you God for this opportunity.

Exams are nearing...my legs are wobbling. Suddenly, workload seems to pile up like crazy, I feel that the load I am carrying on my back is getting heavier. Sometimes the urge of giving up overtakes me, but when I remember that God is in control, everything else (emotions, stress, pressure, expectations) seems to fade away. Lord, please take control of my life, just like the chorus of this song says:

Hold me, never let me go
Change me, I want the world to know
You are, never leave me
God I know you never let me go
Planetshakers - Never Let Me Go (Pick it up album)

Life is so full of uncertainties. Today, my friend asked me if I would die for him, I thought for it for a moment and answered, well I guess it would depend on the situation. Then he asked me to name one, so I described a normal drama serial one - If you were crossing the road and the on-coming car was heading our direction, I will push him to the pavement and sacrifice my life for his I guess. Hahaha...

Anyway, our main discussion was about what our main goal in life was besides fulfilling the great commission. And he told me it was to make loads on money, because from the country where he comes from, without money and status, its hard to gain respect. Well, I suppose that is true for most countries lar, but I came to a point that I didnt want him to study a course in Uni that he will regret. Eventhough it will bring in cash for him, but if there is no job satisfaction, no joy, then it sucks!

Then I was thinking, is social work what I really wanted to do for the rest of my life? And I came to a conclusion that yeah! I love it, I love impacting the life of others, I love working with people, I want to see the joy in every child's eyes. It's a passion, to bring a smile to someone's face. Emotions will be hard for me to handle, but it's something I will learn:)

Laziness is overwhelming me!

My hardworkingness is almost running out of gas. My chemistry grades a dropping...but the rest of my subjects are still alright. I wish that my teacher would just actually bother to read through the textbook before he teaches us so that we can get something out of the lesson. Anyway, the exams are nearing week by week, but I am still so laid back. I should start getting worried, its my final semester, if I slack now, that means byebye scholarship. So I got to work doubly hard if I really want it so badly. May God grant me wisdom, discipline, and consistency.

Asides that, yesterday our business lecturers rewarded the managers by getting us first class seats at a cricket game. With a private room and television with a personal waiter. It was really cool, although the game was so boring, I actually enjoyed myself. I guess it was mainly due to my inability to appreciate the game. Hahaha...but we had fun talking and drinking jasmine green tea. Once in a while we cheered for the queensland team.



Oh and I ended the day by spending it with my good friend Caitlyn. We met for dinner and super duper good movie! Dinner was so fun! We talked so much and I really enjoyed catching up with you Cait:) And oh my gosh! We watched Step up! It is a super GOOD movie! It is a must WATCH! Ballet and Hiphop! WOOHOO! It so inspires me to dance...I'll consider! HEE! Now all I need is a dance partner! WOOHOO! We even had a nice chat while waiting for the citycat to arrive. Thanks dear for your listening ear and encouragements! Love you dearie, had such a great time with you:)

Little upadtes:)

I will just blog in point form today because I am a little lazy! HEE...But here it goes!

1. 4 of my foundation members decided to give their lives completely to GOD, by making a step of faith to be BAPTISED! Praise the Lord. On sunday there was three, and one of them made a decision slightly later but he is going to be BAPTISED TODAY! YAY! I am so proud of all of them!


Naomi, Mami, Jesse and their Sheperds

2. I have picked up my long lost hobby of writing fanfictions. If a couple of my close friends two/three years back knew that I was really into it for a very long time! And I actually wrote a couple of stories that attracted quite a number of fans, but I think I have lost my touch because not many of my fans are back:( But I will keep trying anyway...if any of you have nothing better to do...Go visit: www.winglin.net/fanfic/Rachel


The Unavoidable Destiny

3. With God's grace, I have finished my 4000 word Psychology assignment 1 and a half months earlier:) WOOT! Now, I dont have to go for class anymore and I did well for it! Thank you Lord, for helping me and giving me the motivation. Now I can focus on my other 4 subjects. Exams are in 7 weeks:S

Erm, that's all for now. I will update soon again! HEE...

Mid-Sem is OVER!:(

The mid-semester break passed so quickly! I basically spent my whole holidays watch korean drama and movies and just pigging out in front of the television. I actually just sleep on the sofa and wake up continue to watch my shows. Once in a while, I did some studying and assignments, but most of the time just being lazy. This weekend was a packed one, with the church anniversay and judah4 outing today. It was our church's 13th birthday, I had to be there at 1.30 to practice our dance all the way till evening. It was fun, and took loads of pictures! 3 of our foundation people got baptised today, PRAISE GOD! And we headed of to new farm park for celebrations and just a day out! I will just let the pictures do the talking! (Ps: excuse my lousy photoshop skills, I am not very good at it, just fooling around)


Shekinah Dance Team:)


A few of the many pictures I took


Just a fun day out!