Am I who I really am?

A number of friends has commented that they have seen two sides of me, although they didnt mean it in a bad way, I guess I cant really deny it. Am I considered as living two lives, am I being a hypocrite? When I am people who are more matured than me, I become a 7-year-old kid. On the other hand, when I have to counsel people or with my peers, I turn into this know-it-all 17-year-old. Do I really have to meet that expectation of everyone or can I be pampered once in a while? I am turning 18 is less than 3 months, but why do I still have to act like a kid, it's time to grow up Rachel. I dont have to be someone I am not, yet I am afraid. God you know my heart, you hear my cry, no one else can help me but YOU!

Asides that, thankyou God for carrying me every step of the way through my exams. I am really grateful for your faithfulness. And to my Singapore friends, I am coming home soon!:)

Just A Reminder

Lately, all that filled my mind was do well in studies to get the scholarship. This scholarship is something that I have been aiming towards since the beginning of the year. There was one time, that I became so stressed over it, but my shepherd reminded me that if it is in God's plan for me to get the scholarship, no one can take it away from me. And if it isn't, God has His reasons. I wouldn't blame Him for it though, because it is making me lose sight of God, which is a TERRIBLE thing! However, my friend reasured me with Psalm 37:4, "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart", which I thought was so timely. That's right, so I must put God first in all that I do, everything I do SHOULD glorfy God. This is not only applied in studies, in fact it can be applied in every area of our lifes, in relationships, ministries...This is the challenage of the week, is anyone else up for it?

The Devil wears Prada


Finally watched it, yeah I know I am slow. It's an interesting show, and I really enjoyed it. There were a couple of lessons which I took home with me after the show. I wonder how far I would go to get something that I have dreamt for. Andrea (in the show) did everything she could JUST to please her boss so that she can be a well-known journalist, these included changing her whole image, even a little of her personality. Sometimes, I let the world or rather people influence me in the way I should look, dress and be. I allow others to shape my character and define my personality, which is totally WRONG! Truly, it's something I struggle with, but its an issue I am learning to deal with. As stated in the bible, Romans "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world..."

The second question was am I willing to risk a friendship or a relationship for my own selfish desire? NEVER! I will never do that, but when we are so focused to achieve what we are aiming for, we forget who are the people we hurt around us. Just like the character in the show, she never meant to hurt anyone, but she ended up hurting both her boyfriend and a friend. This is what money, fame and success can do to us, and what's even more scary is that we do not realise it:S

Lord, help me to be more sensitive to the people around me, and give me the strength to lead my life according to your ways...

Thankyou God!

Today I was reading a friend's blog, and I am so touched by the way she makes a conscious effort to thank God everyday. What hit me the most is that she still found something to thank God for despite going through a difficult period! How many of us can actually do that? Honestly, I can't! I take God for granted very often, but yet God is so forgiving. Our God is so gracious, that's a fact which no one can deny. So here are a list of things that I am VERY thankful for:
1. A wonderful family, I seriously couldnt ask for more
2. My friends in Singapore, whom for some I take for granted and I am very sorry for not always being there. Despite the distance, you guys still mean the world to me.
3. The amazing friends I have here in Brisbane, my study buddies!
4. Two loving shepherds
5. A wonderful opportunity to come overseas
6. For my excellent results so far
7. That God has never ever left me alone

The list can just go on forever, but we should always wake up with a thankful attitude towards God for he gave us another day to live.

I realised that FRIENDS play a very vital role in my life. I have to admit that I afraid of being alone, but I realised that God has never left me alone. God has blessed me with so many friends, both in Aussie and in Singapore. Yet I dont treasure them enough, but here's a shout out to ALL MY FRIENDS: Cellkids, little saints, korkor(s), mg friends, judah1,2,4,7,8 people and of coz my foundation gang. Love ya all very much!:)

Cellkids

Little saints

Korkor(s) + Angie

Time for a Change?

Sometimes we all do not really like change, but sadly its something that we cannot escape. It makes me step out of my comfort zone. Guess what! 3 weeks time, I am going to make a significant transition. No, I am not getting married, instead I will finish high school and University here I come. So fast, I am not sure if I am ready, but I dont exactly have a choice. In addition to that, I think its time for me to grow up. Spiritually, mentally, emotionally and it will be good if physically as well. Change change change...its part and parcel of life:) So I decided to change my blogskin as well...WOOHOO! Exams here I come, you cant get me down!

Asides that, I have been trying to get my "artistic" talent of photography again, but well it hasn't exactly been sucessful, but I think this is the best I got so far...


A different angle of the World

Girls, God and the Good Life

I decided to redo my links, I realised my links were getting longer and longer, so I decided to put it into different groups so that I can find them easier!;) Anyway, this morning, Caitlyn found this really cool blog: Girls, God and the Good Life. I love their entries! They turn daily life into such biblical aspects, it helps me to see things in a whole different view! It's so amazing, to me its very life impacting! And I think they are doing a very good job:) I advice all the girls to go read it, I am sure there is something that will touch or speak to you in a way! It did for me:)

Recommanded Entries:
1.Thursday, November 02, 2006 Romance
2.Tuesday, September 26, 2006 If only life was like High School Musical
This entry is so cool! I love this movie produced by disney! If you havent watched it you must, especially after you read this entry! I never thought a normal kiddy show can be seen from a biblical point of view! HA! Now no one can say that I am childish for watching this show! wahahaha....
3.Tuesday, September 19, 2006 Guys/Boys/Husbands
I love this entry:)

Girls...I seriously encourage you to read this! Jiejie, I think you will like this blog:) Guys...you can read it too!

What a JOKE!

Sometimes, I feel that God is playing a joke on me! Yet, I cant laugh at it! He is testing me, but yet I feel like I am failing the test. Where has all my patience and faithfulness gone to? If you find them let me know, I would love to have them back! Thank you! Hahaha...that was a random post! Anyway, I have been hanging out a lot at Uni this week, studying is so fun! I am trying to be positive:) OH OH! And I finally watched The Lake House! Nice nice movie, it was a little complex at the beginning, but with my while imagination, I managed to figure the storyline later on in the show! For crazy romantic people like me, its a MUST watch! WOOHOO! Although, make sure you have somone to control you after that!:)


TEE1


TEE2

Anyway, I was searching online for more Christian T-shirts:) I love them, they are always so meaningful! Today I found one which says "Sorry! I am taken - By God" (TEE1) Hehehe...so cute! Another one, was "Yes! I am a Princess! My father is the King of Kings!" (TEE2) I want to buy them!