So what now?

Most of my friends have more or less decided what they are doing after their olevels. How about me? I can never make confident decision, fear is just so overwhelming till its messing with my brain. i have a dream but i am uncertain. i am afraid that i might regreat my choice! like any reckless youth like me will do! Some of my friends are going overseas, others have decided to take the safe route of JC, yet i cant take the pressure of the speed of education locally. Overseas? Think again! i seriously dont know...there is so much things i cant leave behind. Will i feel out of place? Can i survive by myself? I HATE TO MAKE DECISIONS!

Lord, show me your way...

Little Superhero girl
-corrinne may

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles
with lemonade
Play hide and seek
with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore and
Imagine how I'll make the world
a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark,
but don't bite

Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world

Only by God's grace
Our chinese olevel results were released today, and it was by God's grace i manage to get a satisfying grade. it wasnt the best, but good enough for my parents and i suppose for me too, but like what my teacher said, we are never really satisfied, we always expect higher. i reminded myself, whatever God has given me, be happy! which i am=) thanks to everyone who have kept me in prayer, please continue to pray for me, as i prepare for my other subjects! having a tough time struggling with my humans and sciences.

As faith gradually builds up, the gap of worldly desires closes up...

Faith -so hard to believe
Here i am, 4 more days till prelims, i am not really sure what to expect. ask me if i am prepared, honestly i dont really have a definite answer. Everyone keeps saying "have faith" God will carry us through. I know that, but do i believe that? It's so hard! i mean, i am struggling with the amount of pressure with the books, trying to get my christian life on the right path, yet handling personal problems of my own. How long can i last for? Interestingly, olevels its not even the hardest challenge in life, yet i am struggling so much. i dont even want to think about whats more to come! My most sensible advice from my teacher, just take little steps, at least you are moving forward. Yes, so i shall continue walking forward, forget about all my past horrible grades, i can do better with God's guidence rite?

Rachel, rachel, you with little faith. God says, "trust me, my child, i will never leave you nor forsake you!"